Life As Is

The thing i don't understand is what you think when you sleep.
Do you even think?
I don't think so.
And I won't think so in my sleep
unless i can think in my sleep
witch I do not think I know yet.
When I sleep,
I cannot control what I do.
People say 'that sucks!'
Does it really?
Dreaming without guidance or control could be like seeing and watching how you act in your dreams
And the dreamy world that is inside of you
without making it up or controlling it
just letting it pass by...


I feel like I am trapped in my life.
The only thing I can do is what I am doing now.
I do not feel a bright future ahead of me, but people say it will happen.
Once again, does it really?
I ponder this question on multiples subjects.
What I do in the moment is the only thing I can do
And the background is forever stuck with my life
and I cannot change anything.
Or can I?

My kitty was extra loud last night, and trust me,
Her meows are not like a lullaby, or I would be keeping her by my bed all night.
Last night I looked up at the colossal starry night on my ceiling
pasted all glow in the dark
I began see them quiver
and that's when I turned on the lights all freaked out
It was as if they all were saying, 'what did we do? We were just sitting here quietly!'
And that's when I decided to turn the lights out
and not stare at those freaky stars
and actually sleep.
zzzzzzzzzz........
>w<

The River

I was thinking about this event all week
why?
BECAUSE ALL I DID WAS BORING SUMMERSCHOOL!!!
This, infact, would be the funnest event in my entire week...
...obviously...
>w<
It all started of with playing awesome Killers music mixed with some alternative and Amanda Palmer.
Then was the action.
We were all carrying our dang old heavy backpacks and hiking in our sneake- flipflops,...
when me and my old friend Elijah Say,
"Let"s trek and follow he river the entire rest of the friggin way!"...
That, Unfortunately, did not work.
:(
We-um, didn't realize the distance...
we'll not get to that now.
I finally got to dip my feet in the cold water
Majorly
and trust me,
I did not like it at first.
I found myself finally going into the water, and i go down the river with elijah
Artemis Fowl Style,
commander Julius root and holly short stalking the waters.
That followed by a lot of major splashing
dogs swimming for rocks and helpless little sticks
RAT STENCH!!!!!!
A dorito bag
And endlessly eating PB&J's.
And now we are back.
And I think "Aunt" should have an abbreviation.

The Funny Thing Is

The funny thing is beetween the time of school and summer this year,

everything has changed.

i suddenly move away from my old school, aveson charter school,

switching to renarts performing arts school.

big change.

I also skipped a grade.

mom goes to a hospital for a week due to intestional abstruction.

i get mice (more of them!!!).

my dad moves into a duplex.

My sis gets a new boyfriend.

I get a new room.

I get a new friend.

I get a new life.

wow.

The funny thing is how life can be.

wow.